If I Stay

The book If I Stay is from the perspective of a girl who is in between life and death. She got into a very bad car accident and now she's looking back at her life and contemplating whether she will live or die. I'm only about half way through the book, but so far it has described her family members dying and she is the only one in her family who survived the terrible accident. I've asked myself some questions about the book like, why is she contemplating if she wants to die or life? Isn't it obvious that she wants to live, or does she want to die because of all of the pain she'll be in the rest of her life? In the beginning of the book it talked about her wonderful life, with her loving family and boyfriend, her acceptance to Julliard, and her love of music. Why would she want to throw all of that away? This book can be very sad at some parts, but so far I think it's very interesting and it makes me want to keep reading.